Trying Times

It’s been raining a lot lately which is fine by me because it matches my mood. This month has not gone at all how it was planned to go. There has been a lot of heartache, loss, and frustration. To be honest all of that has made me not give a damn about my food/exercise choices. But this past weekend I was reminded how things in the world aren’t all bad. I took a long walk with my sister in the evening listening to my favorite sound the sound of frogs croaking in the pond. The exercise and the nature and the soothing glow of the stars was a balm for my heavy heart. 

Then my moms dog Archie (which feels like he’s partly mine) escaped the back yard and went missing. I stayed up all night walking the neighborhood or driving around, whistling and calling his name, and sitting in a chair out in the driveway all night waiting to see if he would come home. Until I finally gave up when the rain and lightning came rolling in and I switched over from vigilance to prayer. I said that I had had enough of the bad things this month and I really needed this situation to end well. I woke up early the next morning and looked for him again with no such luck. I started trying to use the Internet and social media to my advantage in his search. I had just finished filling out a long missing dog profile and was waiting for it to be approved when I said another prayer and tried refreshing the page. When the page updated I saw a picture of Archie but it wasn’t the picture that I had posted. It was a picture the family that found him had posted under found dogs! It turns out he was safe with another family only 5 houses down from my sisters.

Archie back safe and sound

I’m exhausted…mostly mentally. Yesterday though definetly physically after being up all night and the drive home clutching the wheel tight because of the insane wind and rains I had to compete with. I came home and took a nap. A nap! I never ever nap. And today my body feels more well rested but it’s a slower process on the emotional side. But I have a feeling that taking some healthy living steps might help with that especially the late evening walks. 

So today I will strap on that old Fitbit, I will get my steps in and feel successful in that goal, and give myself some me time in the form of a walk with my favorite music. I will give my stinky skunky dog another bath so that he can cuddle with me tonight. I will plan a camping trip for next month so we can escape and relax in nature. I will remind myself that everything’s a process. A process to grieve, a process to understand, a process to health and healing. I have to remind myself not to quit because that only makes it slower. I need to think about my food and fitness choices, surrender myself to the knowledge that I can’t control everything, and sometimes all I can do is pray.

Sunday Night Cookies

  There is nothing that makes me feel more domesticated than baking some homemade chocolate chip cookies. And frankly there is nothing quite as comforting as sinking your teeth into a warm gooey circle of heaven and comforting is what we were aiming for today. It has been a long 9 days in our house. What started as a big retirement celebration ended up getting interrupted by a sudden family death. We are just emotionally drained so I thought some cookies would be a nice pick-me-up. 

Amidst all the chaos healthy living hasn’t been the first thing on our minds. A new week is starting and we are happy to at least spend the first couple days of this week alone together. The new pool at the YMCA is open now so we plan to go check it out. M will continue rock climbing and walking on the treadmill. I will do a 21 Day Fix video or two and it’s supposed to be warmer this week so I’d love to go outside and go for a walk. In terms of food I need to go shopping for fruits and veggies since we are completely out. We also bought Eziekial bread last week and have been testing that out. It’s supposed to be one the best breads for you out there. Sometimes I like it sometimes I don’t. It’s very dense and dry but I’m not giving up yet. It’ll just take some time to get used to it (M really likes it). We are going out to eat tonight with friends since it has been so long since we all saw each other last. We will drink a shakeology before we go and order something that is not fried. That’s our plan for this week, I’ll keep you updated as we go along!  

Can’t Get Up

  But it’s only 10 minutes long you say! Well when you put in maximum effort 10 minutes can kick your butt, especially if it’s been a while. 21 Day Fix  10 minute abs = done. Almost decided to skip it all together but chose not to! What choices did you make today? What choices will we make tomorrow?